RIP Madonna

Disclaimer: This blog isn’t a lifestyle blog. Not that there’s anything wrong with that. I’m just trying to manage your expectations. (Or my expectations.) You won’t find any life-changing advice here; I’m not dispensing any sage words over the merits of mason jars (though, I can attest to there being plenty) and the KonMari method here. I’m just trying to get out of a five year creative slump by doing what I’ve been avoiding for so long, which is to just fucking write.

I’m just tired of second-guessing myself. I know it’ll never end, so my way of fighting it is to just do what I want regardless of how terrible an idea I think it is. (Tbh, I’m already kicking myself over writing this disclaimer, but WHATEVS. Shut up, brain.)

Now that that’s out of the way. Some sad news:

Madonna and Birgitte

My first cactus, Madonna, died yesterday. Rot somehow (edit: lol I just found out I was giving her way too much water) got in and started eating away at the base. She was my favorite, and it sucks, but it’s ok. I’ll try again. Meanwhile, Birgitte is thriving. She’s got so many new sprouts I’m gonna have to transfer her to a bigger pot. If you’re looking for a fool-proof plant to start yourself off and dip your feet into crazy plant person territory, fernwood sanseverias are your best bet.

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10 Happy Things

Still trying to get the hang of this blogging thing cos damn, it’s been almost a decade y’all. I think things get a bit tricky once you start prioritizing the ‘blogging’ part over the writing part.

The difference being, in my opinion, is that one is done for an audience and the other is done for the self. Not that either is better than the other, just different. And maybe it’s a lazy distinction, and maybe it’s just my way of shedding accountability for what I write, and maybe I’ll get to that later on. But for now, I just don’t want to think of that.

For now, here’s 10 Happy Things:

1. The weekends make me happy, not only cos there’s no work but because my Saturday rituals are something I live for. I can honestly say they bring me unadulterated joy and I feel a little lost without them. On Saturdays, I wake up obnoxiously early, which for me is around 6 am. I work out, have a slow breakfast with some coffee, then head to Salcedo Market to meet my dad. Afterwards we head to my parents’ home in Merville for lunch. It’s a simple ritual but it really means the world to me.


2. I have a new cactus (the one on the far right.) I haven’t named him yet. One of my co-workers got him at an event and since no one at the office wanted to take him, I did. So happy about my ever-growing plant family!

3. My mom is making lasagna for Saturday family lunch and I’m extremely excited about it. I’ve been craving lasagna for a few weeks now ever since we did the Lasagna Battle over at Juice. My mom hasn’t made it since we were living in the States so this is a big deal. (No pressure, Ma!)

4. Joff made some Hijacked Biscoff cookies this morning and they are a-mah-zing. Seriously.

5. Our cleaning lady came today and now I don’t throw up in my mouth every time I walk into the bathroom anymore! (Just kidding, I still do.)

6. I’ve made lemongrass sausages twice in two weeks and it’s been really delicious both times! So easy and good. Here’s the recipe I use.

7. The weather these past few days has been dreamy. Yesterday, I woke up at 5:30 am and saw the sun rising behind the buildings in Rockwell. The light peaked through the window; it was the most gorgeous hue of pink and orange and it gave me this weird feeling like life might actually be worth living. (Which quickly dissipated as soon as I got on the road.)

8. Work has been good lately. It hasn’t been too intense and I’ve been able to concentrate on doing things well instead of just getting them done; that’s important, I think.

9. Made my third delivery to Connie’s Kitchen this week! Apparently, their regular customers have really been enjoying it and want more. V V happy about that.

10. I’m in the middle of a serious granny phase where I don’t go out, drink, or socialize much. Currently, I’m about 3 or 4 months deep. It’s been awesome but I think it’s time I crawled out of my cave for a bit. Gonna have a few drinks with G, V, and J tonight at Crying Tiger. Looking forward to it.

That’s it! Let me leave you with the cutest demon baby ever.

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A word to the wise, maybe don’t get a 4D sonogram? 

This would be funny if it weren’t so sad

Hello, internet!

Now, before you roll your eyes at yet another blogging attempt, let me tell you, it’s different this time.

Just kidding, no it’s not, and I’ll probably end up abandoning this one too, but for now, let’s have a little fun, shall we?

It’s been a while, I admit, but how ’bout I get you up to speed.

In 2015, I am:

  • Managing Editor at Juice.ph – I started this new position in January of this year. It’s been swell so far and, after taking a year and a half off to freelance (and slowly lose my mind), it’s been nice being able to interact with actual people I like and not faceless names on a screen! So, yay! Also, the monthly check doesn’t hurt.
  • Running my own food business – I now run a small food business out of my apartment called Cool Beans. I make and sell hummus to order, and out of the Connie’s Kitchen deli in New Manila. It’s been a fun and tiring ride so far (mostly fun) and I can’t wait to build my own hummus empire. I’m getting there, I think.
  • Thriving like a motherfucker – I live in a one-bedroom apartment in Poblacion with the man I love and two house plants: a cactus named Madonna and a sansevieria named Birgitte. I like my life a lot.

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  • Working on a zine that actually looks like it may get finished! Shiny Beef is a food-focused zine that features recipes and essays from myself and a slew of amazing Manila-based writers such as Bong Sta. Maria, Nikki Ignacio, Nicole Sebastian, Diane Wuthrich, Anton Umali, and Marla Miniano.

And you’re caught up! Feels strange reducing my life to a few measly bullet points, but w/e, I will spare you the boring-ass details (ie. let’s save them for another post).

I don’t really know the direction this blog is gonna take, and that’s okay. I’ve been trying to be kinder to myself in a lot of ways and not having things quite figured out is part of that.

So, here we go.